As someone who grew up in the Evangelical Free church, I learned about Heaven as a place where everything was good and beautiful. Of course, there were many diverging opinions of that that would be like. Saturday morning cartoons (I grew up in the sixties and seventies) showed heaven as a place where people became winged angels and sat on clouds playing lyres. Some of my friends said "you can eat anything you want and not get fat!" Others suggested that streets paved with gold extended to mansions dripping with precious gems. Everyone who spoke of heaven tended to agree that we would all be happy all the time.
As someone who has struggled with depression, this sounds exhausting.
But even if we get a place where every enjoyable thing is available with no downside, and somehow that's still satisfying, would it be paradise?
What happens when we put people in it?
Surely we know some people whose personalities would make paradise, shall we say, less than perfect. There's that person who whines, and the one who makes those weird noises, and the one who talks endlessly about things no one cares about. There's also the person who doesn't work hard enough, the person who shows everyone up with their over-achieving, and the person who takes credit for other people's work. There's the needy person, and the person who doesn't care about anyone else.
I, at one time or another, have been each of those people.
So my mere presence in paradise would make paradise a little less perfect. Even if God plucks me (and some of my friends) out of an imperfect world and plops me down in paradise, we would turn paradise into Gilligan's Island.
What can we do about this?
Whether we believe in some perfect afterlife, or a better future for society, people have to change. And this change can't just be a change in behavior: we have all met (or been) people who have found ways to address the letter of the rule while violating the spirit. No, we need a change of heart, to become a new person, to be "born again".
Yes, my Evangelical roots are showing.
But for the Cindi I am today, "Born Again" is not about praising Jesus more, or about following some moral code. It's about changing my relationship with others.
It's about hoping that others will experience paradise: not because I'll get rewarded for that hope, but because I genuinely care about others.
It's about caring enough about others that I hope I can do things that will help bring paradise for them.
It's about hoping that I will change to be more in line with a vision of paradise: not for my benefit, but for the benefit of others.
Today, my prayer is that I will wish less to be moved into paradise, but I will be moved to be a part of paradise.
As someone who has struggled with depression, this sounds exhausting.
But even if we get a place where every enjoyable thing is available with no downside, and somehow that's still satisfying, would it be paradise?
What happens when we put people in it?
Surely we know some people whose personalities would make paradise, shall we say, less than perfect. There's that person who whines, and the one who makes those weird noises, and the one who talks endlessly about things no one cares about. There's also the person who doesn't work hard enough, the person who shows everyone up with their over-achieving, and the person who takes credit for other people's work. There's the needy person, and the person who doesn't care about anyone else.
I, at one time or another, have been each of those people.
So my mere presence in paradise would make paradise a little less perfect. Even if God plucks me (and some of my friends) out of an imperfect world and plops me down in paradise, we would turn paradise into Gilligan's Island.
What can we do about this?
Whether we believe in some perfect afterlife, or a better future for society, people have to change. And this change can't just be a change in behavior: we have all met (or been) people who have found ways to address the letter of the rule while violating the spirit. No, we need a change of heart, to become a new person, to be "born again".
Yes, my Evangelical roots are showing.
But for the Cindi I am today, "Born Again" is not about praising Jesus more, or about following some moral code. It's about changing my relationship with others.
It's about hoping that others will experience paradise: not because I'll get rewarded for that hope, but because I genuinely care about others.
It's about caring enough about others that I hope I can do things that will help bring paradise for them.
It's about hoping that I will change to be more in line with a vision of paradise: not for my benefit, but for the benefit of others.
Today, my prayer is that I will wish less to be moved into paradise, but I will be moved to be a part of paradise.